sometimes, i just hate how stingy the way my mom is. she don't even allow me to save pocket money.

Bla Bla Bla

I am back again. It's already April now, but nothing much had happened yet. Woke up at 12 pm noon, and only 20 minutes had passed. The room is still icy cold and my laptop has been playing Kenny G's saxophone pieces the whole night. I felt so comfortable now, because Saturdays I don't have to wake up by ''force'' but instead I woke up naturally. It's the only day to escape from college stress.

Dear God, I wish what I really felt now is really true. If it's fake, then let it vanish as soon as possible please. I can't bear the friendliness and gentleness of this particular star, shining brightly in my mind. I couldn't reach this star when the sky is so high. I know it's seemingly impossible, but if it's true, levitate me so i am able to grab it as my own. If it's fake, give me a signal quickly, just like the usuals.

i am so tired and am gonna sleep now. x.x

i hope one day i am able to find what i really wanted, so that i can escape from torment !

its not easy to stand up and hold on !

Out of randomness.

Out of nowhere, my mind thought of this and I have the sudden urge to post something in this pitiful blog, abandoned by its owner. Whatever also can, at least post something. I guess I am just too bored in the middle of the night.

It's impossible to post everything in one shot so forget about it. Perhaps I should briefly note down how does things go on recently.

> SPM.

Of course. Everyone's studying like mad for it. I think I studied VERY hard for my papers until I just wanna give up at one point but I just can't. No matter what, I am sure my effort is no compare to those science streams. Poor things... What chemistry, physics, biology and omgwtf hardcore subjects. I am glad I didn't take that stream. So finally, it's over.

> College.

College started since 2 weeks ago ? Wanted to take SAM at first, but changed my mind to take CAL instead. Just the usual subjects : Econs, Business Studies, Accounting, and Maths. Maths is such a pain in the ass. Just ONE chapter and I am having trouble already. I feel sorry for those sitting around me since I kept asking questions.

I enjoyed the new college life. Getting used to it already and made some new friends, but I definitely still miss my high school friends and teachers.

2010 had been a super awesome year to me. Without the teachers' guidance and fellow classmates who are not replaceable, there won't be the person I am today. I realized I am actually having hard times to express my feelings towards them. I would get so nervous while giving a speech so it's almost impossible for me to say this out loudly. But to be honest, I never thought that the class I entered 2 years ago would be so much fun.

Oh well, I hate emo moments.

I am pretty sure some might made new friends in college already and replaced frems, but I hope someday we are able to reunite together and study just like during high school, and with the same teacher ! rofl.

Guess that's it. Maybe I should post more often in this blog, so that I won't forget all the precious memories when I grew older.