sometimes, i just hate how stingy the way my mom is. she don't even allow me to save pocket money.

Bla Bla Bla

I am back again. It's already April now, but nothing much had happened yet. Woke up at 12 pm noon, and only 20 minutes had passed. The room is still icy cold and my laptop has been playing Kenny G's saxophone pieces the whole night. I felt so comfortable now, because Saturdays I don't have to wake up by ''force'' but instead I woke up naturally. It's the only day to escape from college stress.

Dear God, I wish what I really felt now is really true. If it's fake, then let it vanish as soon as possible please. I can't bear the friendliness and gentleness of this particular star, shining brightly in my mind. I couldn't reach this star when the sky is so high. I know it's seemingly impossible, but if it's true, levitate me so i am able to grab it as my own. If it's fake, give me a signal quickly, just like the usuals.

i am so tired and am gonna sleep now. x.x

i hope one day i am able to find what i really wanted, so that i can escape from torment !

its not easy to stand up and hold on !

Out of randomness.

Out of nowhere, my mind thought of this and I have the sudden urge to post something in this pitiful blog, abandoned by its owner. Whatever also can, at least post something. I guess I am just too bored in the middle of the night.

It's impossible to post everything in one shot so forget about it. Perhaps I should briefly note down how does things go on recently.

> SPM.

Of course. Everyone's studying like mad for it. I think I studied VERY hard for my papers until I just wanna give up at one point but I just can't. No matter what, I am sure my effort is no compare to those science streams. Poor things... What chemistry, physics, biology and omgwtf hardcore subjects. I am glad I didn't take that stream. So finally, it's over.

> College.

College started since 2 weeks ago ? Wanted to take SAM at first, but changed my mind to take CAL instead. Just the usual subjects : Econs, Business Studies, Accounting, and Maths. Maths is such a pain in the ass. Just ONE chapter and I am having trouble already. I feel sorry for those sitting around me since I kept asking questions.

I enjoyed the new college life. Getting used to it already and made some new friends, but I definitely still miss my high school friends and teachers.

2010 had been a super awesome year to me. Without the teachers' guidance and fellow classmates who are not replaceable, there won't be the person I am today. I realized I am actually having hard times to express my feelings towards them. I would get so nervous while giving a speech so it's almost impossible for me to say this out loudly. But to be honest, I never thought that the class I entered 2 years ago would be so much fun.

Oh well, I hate emo moments.

I am pretty sure some might made new friends in college already and replaced frems, but I hope someday we are able to reunite together and study just like during high school, and with the same teacher ! rofl.

Guess that's it. Maybe I should post more often in this blog, so that I won't forget all the precious memories when I grew older.

History's over.

Sejarah's over

Sejarah's over

Sejarah's OVER !

How much I wish I could say this when the real SPM comes. =)

Seriously, I hate sejarah. Know why ? Because it's impossible to memorize everything for me. -.- Hell, looks like I need to read the whole book once everyday to get most of the facts into my mind. But overall, I am glad I didn't mess up anything in the papers so far, but I still can't put my hopes up high because I am not very confident with my answers. Still, I don't want a C in my trial. I want to score A for all but if it's impossible for me at the moment then I hope at least 70+.

Since when did I become so determine to score for exam ? Because when I was sitting for PMR Trial, I didn't bother to study at all. I ended up getting C and B only. CB... =)

It wasn't about getting good results to get in a good college or university or something. I have this feeling that even though I won't be using this knowledge in the future life but I still wanted to get good results... It's sort of like a rank or challenge to me. I know this is crazy enough... I almost become a nerd. This feeling is... wierd. D: But I am sure some people feels the same way. harhar.

Woots ! I've just blogged ?

Kay, I know I just left this blog dead for almost half a year, although it's always half dead anyways... But I am bored now. Tsk tsk what can I say ?

Trial's tomorrow... OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG so what ! -.-

I studied though, but not almost everything went in my mind.

Whatever it is, just look how fast the time has flown ? I've ABANDONED this poor thing for so long already ?! If I were to write everything I've been through, trust me it's going to take endless page. I've been through many interesting things, or maybe I can say ADVENTURE ! rofl. Yes, I've encountered many things. I've been to many places. I've experienced many things that I've never imagined I would've before. It feels like it has been several years already. The friendship between me and my classmates doesn't really sounds like we've only known each other for a year + but more.

Of course, I've never forgotten my ex-classmates. Especially the closest ones like Christine, Joel, Ye Leong, Ee Wen, Eunice etc etc, but seems like everyone is stressing themselves into their studies and stuffs. Even Kylie doesn't online often anymore. Sigh.

What? Study ?

Hell not now.

So yeah, but I guess after SPM we can plan a time to hang out in the usual places. No worries then. :/

Even so, after SPM everyone's heading separate ways and we are not staying in the school next year anymore. Hmm, that reminds me of Merdeka Carnival 2 days ago. It feels like the carnival thing is getting better and better every year, or maybe not. D: Whatever man, I can still come back and visit next year if I want.

Oh well, I should go. =]

D:

It has been almost a month already without noticing. Class Test 2 is like only a couple of weeks ahead while Paramount Championship is keeping everyone busy on their own particular events.

Ah yes, Mandarin Speech = failure. roflolmao. Don't even mention it and I admit I suck XD !

But for Mandarin Debate was like... it was so close. The judges said our points are good and strong but ours marks were pulled down by the questioning and answering the opponent. Oh well, deep inside I wished we could win and continue the next round. Debating was actually quite fun but never mind. We lost :) Andy was very sad for 1 or 2 days ? o.O

Anyway, this year's PC was a whole new change in terms of the organization. Whoever pulled out within a valid reason for example DON'T DARE will bring the whole class get disqualified. He/Her name will be blacklisted in any events as well. *points at Tasnim* And besides, each class will have to ''summon'' an Event Director as a representer of the class to meetings or helping the class in case of anything.

The biggest problem was themes. Almost every event gets a theme... It was unnecessarily to have themes in some event in my point of view. -.- Who knows ? Maybe Mr. Zac wants our PC which was organized once every year to be more parade like every year. Whatever it is. This is my last year ! :)

Dang. I forgot what I wanted to post yesterday night... Oh well, I guess I will end here.